30 March 2010

the "fail better" mission, update 03-29-10

*yawns*

i submitted three of my poems for Adirondack Review's 46er Prize for Poetry just a few minutes ago. they've got a neat little system, too. your entry fee is based on how many poems you submit (1 is $5, 2 is $8 and 3 is $10). AND you pay the fee via paypal. talk about convenient!

i also corresponded with a very intelligent novelist on facebook, who told me i should be prepared to perform at the drop of a hat. good advice. i wonder what that MEANS in terms of fiction, though ... do people walk up to fiction writers and say, "hey, spout some prose for my kids!"?

it's probably WAY too 1:30 to ponder this. but there's my update. thanks for the comments, friends. invite your homies to my blog! hell, i dunno why. maybe so i can feel famous?

m.

27 March 2010

the "fail better" mission, update 03-27-10

i sent my stuff to the good people of 2River Press a couple days ago. today, while i was teaching my saturday afternoon "strategies" class, i looked on my phone and noticed i'd gotten an email from Richard Long, whom i am guess is 2River's poetry editor. he said he enjoyed reading my poems, but couldn't use them for the summer 2010 issue of the mag.

what's weird is that i was almost excited about the rejection. it felt like ... progress. i've been rejected by a few presses and magazines before, and i know that NOT ALL of them include something about "enjoying" your work in their rejection message. so that was nice. besides, 2River is quarterly, so i'll be able to send them more stuff in a couple months. and i WILL. just you watch out, Richard Long!

ok, i need coffee. i'll need to send my stuff to at least ONE place before i can sleep tonight ...

holla back!

m.

24 March 2010

the list of online publications.

Action, Yes not accepting submissions @ this time
The Adirondack Review submitted 3 poems to the 46er prize on 03-29-10
Alsop Review website seems to be out of commission 04-08-10
Archipelago no longer accepting submissions 04-08-10
The Barcelona Review fiction only! 04-08-10
Barrow Street not accepting submissions for the JOURNAL, but i'm submitting to the Barrow Street Poetry Book Contest. my submission will go into the mail 04-12-10!
Beltway Poetry only published literary works from people in the DC metro area. but i followed a link on their site to Innisfree Poetry Journal, which IS accepting electronic submissions at this time. i'm sending off to them tonight! 04-11-10
Blackbird submitted 04-13-10
Blithe House Quarterly only publishes LGBT short fiction, and they're not accepting submissions anyway
Blue Moon Review no longer publishing! *frownie face* 04-13-10
Born Magazine not accepting written work at this time 04-13-10
Café Ireal only accepts fiction, but it's like WEIRD fiction and can be very short. gonna have to come back to this. 04-13-10
Carve Magazine another fiction-only journal. eh. i subscribed to it. 04-13-10
Coconut Poetry submitted 03-24-10
Cortland Review submitted 04-18-10
Danforth Review ERROR MESSAGE! 04-13-10
decomP submitted (yawningly) 04-14-10
Dead Mule exclusively for THE SOUTH, but in an interesting way. i might be able to submit there. i'll check on it. i'm sleepyashe ll.com 04-14-10
Drunken Boat not accepting poetry submissions @ this time
Ducts submitted 05-05-10 (happy cinco de mayo!)
Exquisite Corpse despite its exceedingly cool title, this site is defunct, 04-20-10
Eyeshot fiction only, but they write some awesome rejection latters! 04-20-10
Foliate Oak not accepting submissions until august. i'll be back!
Fringe i THINK i can submit to them. not quite sure. i'll dig around and get that done tonight. 05-09-10
Go Ezines is actually a directory. gonna dig around in there! 05-09-10
God Particle this link sent me to some sort of bible study website. i'm gonna write and ask them if they publish poetry. heh. 05-09-10
Hobart doesn't accept poetry, but they except real or imaginary SPOTLIGHT features. i kinda wanna do one about my roomie. 05-09-10
IdentityTheory only accepting poems about money. that's so weird. since when do poets have MONEY? ok, i'm off to go write something ... 05-09-10
Iowa Review Online not accepting until september. 05-22-10
Jacket Magazine will start reading in june! be back in a couple weeks ... 05-21-10
Konundrum
Le Petite Zine submitted hella early am 05-23-10. nine more to go. fuck.
Literal Latte meh. no electronic submissions. gotta print some stuff off. 05-23-10
Madhatters' Review reading period is over - my bad. five more. 05-23-10
McSweeney's them no likey poetry. 05-22-10
Memorious submitted, bitches! six more. 05-23-10
MiPOesias submitted to OCHO, via MiPOesias, 05-23-10
Monkeybicycle not accepting any submissions for the print journal, but i may try my hand at a one-sentence story!
Muse Apprentice Guild nothing to see here. 05-21-10
Octopus Guild reads during the month of august only. couple more months to go! 05-21-10
Paumanok Review etext archives? huh??? 05-21-10
Pif Magazine tooling around with this stupid HeyPublisher crap. it won't accept my attachments. blah. 05-21-10
Pindeldyboz no longer accepting poetry submissions. waaaah! 05-21-10
Pittsburgh Quarterly Review doesn't look like these guys have updated since 2007. no submission guidelines available. 05-21-10
Richmond Review not accepting submissions. 05-21-10
Segue missed their deadline. blah. 05-21-10
Sidebrow
Slope not accepting submissions just yet ... 05-21-10
Small Spiral Notebook i am forbidden. 05-21-10
Snow Monkey submitted, gotdammit. 05-23-10
SoMa Literary Review if they DO have submission guidelines, i couldn't find them. 05-21-10
Storyglossia not found. 05-21-10
storySouth submitted! 05-23-10
Summerset Review poetry is WHORES! submitted 05-23-10
Tarpaulin Sky not accepting poetry/fiction submissions till the fall
2River told me no 03-27-10
3AM Magazine not accepting poetry submissions. 05-09-10
3rd Bed published in a language that is decidedly NOT english, except for the word "RESPECT."
Unpleasant Event Schedule the full deal of someone named daniel nester. he doesn't seem to want my poems. hmph. 05-09-10
Web del Sol told me no 12-2009
Word Riot published two of my poems 11-2009
Words Without Borders can't figure out where to find the submission guidelines!

23 March 2010

my newest mission.

i admit, i'm not what anyone could call "self-motivated." i'm just not. even when it comes to my writing, which is my biggest dream in life. this completely muddled and non-lucrative "being a poet" thing is all i ever wanted to do and i'm not doing a very good job at DOING it.

i get discouraged too easily. i applied (very sloppily and hastily) to three schools for a Ph.D. in English with Creative Writing dissertation right after i graduated from boise state with my mfa, and was rejected by all three. at the time i was crushed and CONVINCED those rejections meant i wasn't going to be successful as a poet & writer - despite the fact that my applications were sort of thrown together and i wasn't very well prepared. instead of realizing that i just needed to really THINK about why i wanted to go into a doctoral program (since then, i've officially discovered that i probably DON'T want a Ph.D. not in that, anyway), i beat myself up. and i've been at a standstill ever since.

i take rejection too harshly. sending out my poetry for publication is always a nail-biting experience. i mean, i KNOW i won't be accepted by every press, but ... like ... i still WANT to! who wants to be rejected, right? but i let that slow me down, and i think the reason they slow me down is because i don't submit my work to ANYWHERE NEAR enough presses, mags, etc. don't give myself a chance to get in the groove and keep going.

oh yeah, and i had a kid and got a job and stuff. i don't regret having my daughter, as she is the coolest person on the face of the earth, but motherhood (especially SINGLE motherhood) is time-consuming ... draining. eleni sikelianos recently asked me on via facebook chat if i'd been keeping up with my reading since i graduated. i asked her if dora the explorer "say it two ways" books counted. i guess you get the picture.

anyway, blah to all the excuses. i need to submit my work more places and stop being such a wuss. (i'm also thinking of applying for a SECOND mfa in poetry. leave a comment on this blog telling me your thoughts on that idea.)

sooo, here's my new mission. i've decided to work my way through the online AND print publication links listed by a really great online literary journal called failbetter. i'd been skimming through the list, researching and reading some of the journals and even submitting a couple of places. then i decided it would make the most sense to just submit to ALL of them that still exist and that would accept my work right now. gives me something to focus on, a task to complete, and some sort of structure to my creative endeavors. i guess you could say i'm trying to toughen up and live by the samuel beckett quote from which failbetter got their name: "ever tried? ever failed? no matter. try again. fail again. fail better."

i'll blog every few days with a list of the places i've submitted my work.

wish me luck, 'k? gonna need it ...

*oh, so far i've submitted to coconut poetry and rattle.

16 March 2010

a nod to harryette mullen and cheryl pallant (inspired by terrence hayes)

special y’ooze

(for cheryl pallant)


you’re too much waist in time.

you’ve been rending a room in the wrong house

this whole time and

your bill was late. you’re bent on audit.

you’re auditory, gotten notice after

the fact of certain.

you are seven of the thinnest dimes I’ve ever seen

and even at one stroke.

you are a Mabe of all seasons, a dog of one.

you’re all bonkity-bonk and diddity-doo the kind that don’t

bite back.

you’re that bigger-than-the-both-of-us brand of file

in the cake

and featherweight.

you back against the wall and forever back

after these messages

you will not sway me with your swamp thing smile

and sorcery-less sword,

your whispers swindle.

you’re the wrong swine for this truffle

and it’s been too long.

too much trouble.

you dine on the wills of men

I will not abide, and you will not attend.

you will not attend the Death Star Disco.

16 February 2010

creativity and responsibility

the problem with writing a blog is that you're sort of expected to say something. i don't know that i want to say anything right now. but i'm thinking about creativity and the responsibilities of creative people ... or, really, the PRESSURE creative people feel to produce something that's considered "good." are my bad poems my fault? yes! you terrible person, mia! look at that bad, bad poem you wrote! you're losing your touch, and for shame. or something like that. i don't know ...

so, you're here in my house. do you have about nineteen minutes? if so, watch this tedtalk. elizabeth gilbert, author of "eat, pray, love," talks about the nature of creativity, creative process and creative genius. i am going to watch it again after embedding it onto this blog. beneath the embed of the clip, i am going to post my "ars poetica," which i think speaks to what gilbert is saying here. it's a little "dawning of the age of aquarius" or something ... but hey! THAT'S NOT MY FAULT! after you see the clip, you'll understand what i mean. feedbacks?



ars poetica

i am merely a medium through which the poem may choose to re-enter the universe and reunite with the Soul of the World. i recognize that the poem is Ancient. it existed long before my birth and therefore does not belong to me. i do not write the poem, but rather attempt to translate it from its natural, Ancient form into something resembling language – something that most closely resembles whatever the poem is trying to tell me it is.

i recognize my simultaneous importance and insignificance in the creative process. i understand the concept of writing and my self-indulgent human need to filter ownership into this process as what they are – tedious hindrances to be circumvented in order to get closer to the poem. as a medium, i recognize my duty to transport the poem safely into language and usher it as far beyond God as my human constraints will allow me.

to attempt to get the poem beyond God is not sacrilegious. there is only one entity beyond the vibrating system of misconceptions, ego-trips, humiliations and cat-fights that comprise our petty construct of God. that one entity is God. i recognize that my desired destination for the poem is impossible, and therefore most vital. the poem can never get beyond God because the poem is God.

it is my duty to attempt, in every translation, to get the poem as close to its Ancient form (within the confines of language [within the confines of my limited knowledge of a language]) as i can. i recognize, however, that every attempt will fail. it is this failure that makes me a poet. i recognize that the value of my work will not be determined by when someone applauds or approves or purchases it. this value will be determined only by the singular instant when the poem tells me that, though i failed to translate it completely, i came close.


30 January 2010

"here's a funky introduction of how nice i am ..."

ok, new project.

i've decided to teach my three-year-old music-lover about hip-hop. i fell in love with the music and the phenomenon at a young age, and feel a responsibility to teach my child that there are and some very intelligent, creative and positive hip-hop artists out there, before she goes to school and is inundated with the pseudo-thuggery and mindless materialistic blabber of most "rap" music out these days.

the new project may sound a little random or silly, but i truly believe hip-hop has great value. there is so much perspective on history, culture, politics and spirituality couched within the music that often gets overlooked in favor of the hottest beat or the flashiest persona. i want her to be exposed to the great lessons hip-hop offers the world, instead of the negativity and madness. i've already started thinking about lessons in musical etymology through hip-hop's notorious sampling. oh you really like talib kweli's "get by," honey? well, that song liberally samples "sinnerman" by nina simone. here, let me play it for you now!

seriously, people. the last thing an over-thinker like me needed was a kid, over whom i could obsess about fostering awesomeness. but there's no turning back now! BWAHAHA!

this all started when my daughter watched a commercial that featured the instrumental to "rebirth of slick" by digable planets. she was instantly captivated by the hook, and walked around for the next few days letting her family know she was, indeed, "cool like dat." i couldn't resist the opportunity. i sat her on my lap and pulled up the full-length video on youtube with my laptop, just to see her response. i thought for sure the kid wouldn't sit through a video that long without colorful visual effects, upbeat singing, and all the bells and whistles of her standard nick jr. experience. but i was dead wrong. my toddler watched the low-key, somber, black-and-white footage with the focus of a great explorer studying an ancient map. her brows furrowed, she tried her best to hear and understand the lyrics. she nodded to the beat and seemed to take in the general "vibe" of the song. i was wowed!

at her request, i've played the video for her several times since then. just today it occurred to me to play her something else. the trouble lies finding songs that will capture the SPIRIT of hip-hop without explicit lyrics or adult content. i thought and thought, and then a lightbulb flashed. "blue cheese" by the UMCs may not be fully-approved fare for a bona fide hip-hop "head," but it's ideal for a little kid. everyone's dressed in bright colors, smiling and dancing around. the beat is cheery and upbeat. there's even a monster in the video! besides all that, hass g and kool kim were pretty good lyricists. not a hard sell for the midget. she loved it, and asked to watch "the cheese song" again!

i've now created a youtube playlist of all the videos i'd like to play for my little music prodigy as i teach her about one of my favorite music genres. mos def's "umi says" made the list, as did "fugeela" by the fugees.i threw in some "ladies first" by queen latifah for girl power and afrocentrism, while de la soul's "breakadawn" will challenge her aptitude by introducing complex lyrical cadences. i'm sorry to report that "B.O.B." by outkast will probably get cut from the list. i found the cable tv edit of the video, so there are no dirty words, and the colorful video accompanies the fast-paced, dance-friendly song perfectly, but uhm ... there are strippers in the video. don't think i can justify that one. maybe i'll add "the whole world" instead ...

anyway, i'm hoping to have this be an evolving playlist that grows as my girl does. check it out! i'd love to see feedback and suggestions on this, and not even just for hip-hop! suggest some great songs you think my kid would like. i'll thank you in advance to contributing to her awesome-ification.